Thursday, 31 January 2013

This week

On Monday the lo had his EEG. It's wasn't to bad but he hated having the pads put in his head. It was ashame because he isn't old enough to understand. A week tomorrow we get the results and decide what to do about them. I am really nervous about them and the decisions we have to make I am just glad my oh with be here to make them with me.

Yesterday was nursery for the second time and it was a million times easy. I didn't feel anxious at all. He loves bein there. I am so glad he doesn't cry when he goes in. He just runs off to play and I love that. I love his excitement to explore. My little man is definitely amazing.

Tomorrow we go home for our nieces christening. I can honestly say I am dreading it. I dnt have a good relationship with my oh mum n nan at all. For over 2 yrs me n his mum didn't talk we have only just started to n she meet the lo for the first time over Christmas. However me and his nan still don't talk. They are goin to be there on Sunday n I am goin to be on my own with a child that will not want to be still n quiet for the ceremony. My oh is godparent so he will be at the front. I know the looks I will get off his nan and tbh I have got the patience for it at all.

On a brighter note me n my husband have decided to try for another baby at the end of march. I am very very excited. I have been so broody. Everywhere I go there are pregnant women or newborns. :) hopefully by July I will be pregnant but we will see.

Wishes us luck

The Royal Engineer's Wife xx

Wednesday, 23 January 2013

First day if nursery x

So today was the day my little one went to nursery for the first time. It went well. He didn't cry when I left him, he ran off to play :)

So I went home feeling lost. The house was really quiet and there was no toys out. So I got breakfast and watched Jeremy Kyle feel anxious. Then I cleaned ironed and put clothes away. But I still had time left. It felt like forever.

My husband was home so he came with me to get him. They said he had had a good day :). In his daily diary it says he settled well. He enjoyed playing with toys and looking at himself in the mirror :). He seems happy enough. He is having some dinner then off for a nap as he keeps rubbing his eyes.

Lets hope next week is a little less anxious for me.

The Royal Engineer's Wife x

Monday, 21 January 2013

Little man + nursery = very nervous mummy

So my little man starts nursery one day a week from Wednesday. I have filled his forms in, wrote his name on his bag and coats and the visit went well. He is going to love it. He enjoyed just being there half an hr this morning.

It's not my little man I am worried about its me. I have 3 whole hours all to myself. I think I will have to find something to do that isn't sleeping. I know sleeping will be the first thing my body will want to do. So, I think I might have to clean. Cleaning sounds good. :)

The Royal Engineer's Wife xx

Thursday, 17 January 2013

Things are getting better

I went to the med centre on Monday and the doctor decided to medicate me. Against my better judgement I took the tablets. Worse idea ever. They made me so ill. I spend all of Monday night up until last night on the loo every 5 minutes. I was exhausted, couldn't eat and felt worse than I had in a very long time. So last night I followed my judgement and decided to stop taking the tablets.

This morning I feel a million times better. I am still tired and I haven't eaten yet but I feel like I can get on with my day. My counselling should come soon. :)

My little man has his EEG in just under 2 weeks. I just want it to be done and to know where we stand. I want to just have more clue about it.

Finally feel like things are getting sorted.

The Royal Engineer's Wife x

Friday, 11 January 2013

Back to reality

So we are back to camp now. My anxiety is still low. But how long that will last I don't know. We are all full of a cold. My little man has been very upset whilst he has been poorly but he seems to be on the mend today.

Whilst being at my mums we haven't watched much cbeebies. I had forgotten how mind numbing it is. It is mesmerising though and you end up watching it more than your kids do. Which is quite scary lol.

I feel like we have been waiting ages for my little mans EEG appointment n it still not here. Neither is my appointment for counselling :( why do these things take so long when they are important?

The Royal Engineer's Wife x

Friday, 4 January 2013

Christmas and new year x

Happy New Year! I know it's late. So our Christmas was perfect. Nice and quiet just me my husband little man mum dad n brother. It only took us 3 Christmas' to get it right. New Year's Eve we went to a charity party it was good but my hubby got some bad news that a close family friend died. It's been a sad time but he is getting his head around it.

We are still at home (my mums) it's getting stressful because we don't have proper beds and no privacy. But I don't feel anxiety here so I feel better here. I can't believe that I have no anxiety.

I have dropped a whole dress size :) I am very proud of myself but have no idea how I did it. I have bought a gorgeous dress today for my nieces christening and I am so made up I can get in a lipsy dress n not look fat.

I can't wait to get home on the 8th because I miss diesel. She is bein well looked after by the dog sitter but I miss cuddles n her scavin for my crisps n scraps.

Hope new year has started well for you.

The Royal Engineers Wife xxx